New York, New York

Ah. It's a beautiful evening outside. Occasional bursts of gushing wind, but the wind isn't too cold and the temperature is lovely. An entire building full of friends and luggage, awaiting the tour of a life time. What could be wrong with this picture?? Nothing...except the fact that it's 3:46 a.m. currently... Most of us choir folk haven't slept in the last 24 hours and are all anxiously awaiting 4 a.m. when we can trudge onto the bus and sleep to our heart's content. Our bodies filled with a range of emotions from move-out stress and grade anxiety to freedom and relief that it's over. And then I stop to think. It's over. Another year past, another milestone achieved. I just finished my freshman year in college. Wow. Where on earth did my childhood go?!? New and dear friends all separating and going home. Home to various states and situations, the only connection to our college world maybe being a few texts, some Facebook messages, maybe the muses of the sleep deprived on a random blog...but for those few lucky ones where their home town is thriving with college students, they bask in the boredom of a summer with good friends. I've said goodbye to SOOOOO many of my good friends in just 3 days, it feels like I'm never going to see any of them ever again...but it's just for a summer :)

This year has produced such a growth in me, such as I have never felt before. Both spiritually and physically. After spending a year where my parents weren't here all the time, it really made me realize how much I depend on them. When they weren't here or I wasn't able to get ahold of them, it made me realize how much I really do depend on God. For instance: As a little kid, we'd often take road trips. Wichita, Lawrence, sometimes just to the little suburb of Auburn. Most of the time, I was quietly snoozing in the backseat until that unpleasant moment where your parents open the car door to wake you up and an instant rush of cold air fills the car. Tonight, however, I drove by myself to an unfamiliar location, often driving in the middle of nowhere, simply going by my friends' directions. I felt old. I had made my own decision to go where I wanted when I wanted. I was still reminded of my dependence on God a few times though. It's amazing all the little things God can do to wake you up.

Anyway....this blog would probably tumble into a blabberous and confusing tumult if I typed anymore...Plus, it's 3 minutes till we leave! :) Gotta catch my bus, which seat can I take??? ;)

Summer Days are Weeks Away

*big sigh of relief* ahhh! Finally! A few days to just relax. I had a huge test yesterday that I'd been working hard to study for between everything else I had on my plate. But today is perfect. Yesterday I had classes pretty much non-stop all day, went to church, reserved my dorm room for next semester with a fantastic girl (aka Kristen :) ) and then got to go star gazing with some new friends. Then at midnight we surprised my roommate for her birthday with a small party :) It was only for a half hour though, they all had death papers to write. I, not being in that class, decided to procrastinate and stay up later than normal to help encourage them while they were dreading the all-nighter ahead of them. Apparently, after I had gone to sleep, Jenny was playing the Harry Potter soundtrack and my subconscious joined in the singing of Bubble, Bubble, Toil and Trouble......weird. After such a stressful week, I finally get a break though. Today I had 3 classes, and a lot of rest. I got to go with Daniel and Nikki to walk Dodger. That dog. He can't pick a side of the road to stay on and eats everything in sight. It was fun though, we got to get some sun and had a small break from campus.

As I write this, I'm sitting in the pavilion of the student center on a couch, where the temperature is perfect and there is a slight breeze. I don't know what the rest of the night holds for me except fun! Although....even if it is Jenny's birthday, we have a mandatory meeting later and she has a huge test tomorrow....so I may just get to sleep early tonight :) Or I might grab one of my favorite books and just curl up outside. The perfect ending chapter of a story :) Well....perfect, if I don't get ran over by the guys horsing around out here tackling each other over fruit......